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Tuesday, August 25th, 2015
9:54 pm - A summation
I vegged out the entire day. It was cloudy and cool for its entirety, yet totally free of rain.
I relished this, seeing it as an opportunity to finally watch Watchmen. It was pretty good, I guess. It did a lot of things differently from other films at the time, perhaps owing to how it was faithful to the comic panel by panel.
Three hours spent watching it...
I regret nothing.
I fucking needed this after a seven-day workweek. 

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Monday, August 24th, 2015
10:45 pm - A lot to spill.
WORK:
Now, even though a mocha latte is a hot drink, plenty of customers are stupid and think the "iced" part is implied. This has resulted in occasions in the past where a person will watch me steam the milk and pour the drink, only to say "I wanted iced" after the whole process.
Having learned from this, I now go through a whole process of asking people each little thing and typing it into the receipt, which also shows on a small screen facing the customer.
So when someone tells me I got their order wrong--despite that being utter bullshit--after this whole process, I should be canonized for not screaming at them to leave my sight.
This was today, Monday. The previous five days were rather unpleasant. The first one involved me being alone and forced to someone prepare the coffee shop for a four-day event. The following four involved that four day event.
I worked twelve hours day after day and managed to survive, only really snapping once on those four. I was alone most of that time, and there were points where I was so busy taking orders and making drinks that I couldn't even find the time to grind up some beans for another carafe.
This was too much for me.

RUNNING:
Well, I'm not injured, so there's that.

MISC:
I asked out a co-worker and was up to going out, but stuff popped up, then there was Zoo Ala Carte. We talk here and there, but I'm starting to think that nothing's going to happen.
But hey, I tried.




current mood: annoyed

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Tuesday, August 4th, 2015
9:05 pm - Feeling Sharper
I may cut a few corners in today's blog due to me accidentally deleting it halfway through.
I wound up getting too indecisive on whether to do yoga to relieve some of the issues that running has been lately causing me, or to instead go to a meeting on protocol and safety tips when going to dirty parties. In any case, I stood immobilized by indicision. I wound up finding too much time had gone by and I stayed home.
I still intend to swim tonight.
Perhaps I'll run tomorrow morning. I like sleep, but I work with coffee all day, so it's not too bad.
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I got to hang out with some friends a few days back, allowing me to finally get the social exposure I've been needing lately.
Nothing of note has been done as of late. The days just dissapear.
I haven't played a video game in weeks, leaving Steam just sitting there on my screen to gather dust. I've been busy it seems.
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I've been considering asking out someone at my work. In all honesty I don't know much about her other than she's cute and geeky, but my usual extreme of not acting at all ever has taken its toll on me.
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I suppose my writing comes to an end here.

current mood: tired

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Saturday, August 1st, 2015
6:23 pm - Energy Usage
Yesterday I was fatigued, crashing after work and being unable to find the energy to swim, led alone even feel 100% confident in my driving ability.
Today I'm much better. Work was hellish today, as it should be in the summer. As a general rule, a tough day leaves me with more energy than a slow day.
Today I swim, then perhaps go for a run.
I felt like typing more, but I feel like this was all that was in me. 

current mood: okay

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Wednesday, July 22nd, 2015
10:08 pm - Managing Energies
Today was a day worth recounting. Hell, these past few days have been worth recounting:
COFFEE SHOP
Today stands out notably for the day they took my tip-cup away. Apparently there were complaints about it creating jealousy and/or implying for some that we as public employees could be bribed.
The people who complained have clearly never been to a coffee shop in their lives. A tip-jar is common custom, and I have to give people back singles today that they placed on the counter for my partner and I.
And that in many ways is the annoying thing. It's not so much being deprived of $5-15 extra per day as it is the number of people I'll have to explain to that we don't except tips.

READING
I stopped reading Invertebrate Neurobiology due to me merely losing track of it. I have begun re-reading Dune. Good stuff. I'd like to tackle a few more books though.

FITNESS
I really push injury at 10-12 miles at this point, but I took a slight injury around 5-6 yesterday. I ran a shorter distance specifically to avoid that. I'm not confident in my ability to run a marathon by October. I'm not ready to give up necessarily, but while I was ahead a month ago, I'm not so much now. I'll see if I can still do something different. Maybe by mixing up activities I can decrease the risk of injury?

That's about all for now.

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Friday, July 17th, 2015
8:45 pm - Just a Moment to Vent
Living between two houses can be a bit of a pain. Suddenly normal things like plans with friends, work and hobbies becomes ridiculously difficult.
It was worse before I had a car, but it's still a little much.
Now the fungus on my zucchinni plant's leaves has started to spread like crazy.
It just makes things more difficult. 

current mood: annoyed

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Thursday, July 16th, 2015
10:10 pm - Catching Up.
There's been quite a bit going on the past couple weeks. In many ways, it's quite a bit to take in all at once. The attitude I had for a while was that of a hermit. I wasn't feeling depressed, I was just not in the mood to really take in the everything that is a social situation.
Work has been good, money has gone well enough for me and reading has been gradually picking up again.
I'm starting to think I always need a fantasy or sci-fi novel to read. It's when I read something like that that I open up to books as a whole. Jumping into all the science books that I've been jumping into has not gone over too well.
Running is going well, gardening is coming along and I'm chasing my hobbies a bit more.
Life is okay. 

current mood: okay

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Monday, July 6th, 2015
9:16 pm - Plans
Today was a busy day, and one that required me to spend hours of it just looking for a rare set of Vibrams.
I accomplished that all while being distracted by other amusements.
I've a new thing to work towards now--every paycheck I'll set aside a hundred dollars or more aside for a car. Once I get situated and plot this out I'll have it so that all but one hundred and fifty or so will go towards saving for a car. Of the one hundred and fifty not going towards that, I'll set aside approximately fifty dollars towards a banjo.
I bought a book and cd guide for harmonica. I'd be focusing on that right now, but I have a jitteriness that can only be fixed with a run. This rain inspires me.

current mood: fatigued, excited

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Sunday, July 5th, 2015
11:18 pm - Runner's High and Work-Based Exhaustion
I worked six days straight, with five of them being by myself for the occasional person to switch me out when I'd have to pee.
I can't complain too much, though. I was scheduled like this due to the two other coffee shop workers being on vacation for a week straight. As a result, I worked 8:30-5:00 day after day. I may have gotten out early once.
I think.
It was all a blur.
The paycheck will make this all worth it, as well as the $10-20 dollars in tips I was making each day.
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Life has been fairly good to me. I'm in a good enough spot for the time being. I have more money than I've had in months and I'm in a good position to finally take a breather and really think about how this year will unfold.
My goals are not easy, but laid out well enough:

  • Go back to taking college classes for the winter/spring semester and work towards some sort of biology-type degree.

  • Save up for a new car.

  • Look for other jobs. Given my current station, I consider myself now above a lot of positions I would have killed for previously.*

  • Sign up for the fencing club that's setting up in Milwaukee this August.

  • Try to pay some people back, mayhaps?

There have been odd little going-ons the past few weeks. I've come to the conclusion that using a switch on one's child is a bit extreme. I know this now through experience.
Two of my friends from completely different circles are dating. Small world, really.
I've been getting reading in again.
I can run 10-11 miles at this point, but that isn't 26.2, now is it? I'm still at around three in my finger-toe shoes. I need to do more work on certain support-muscles.

I suppose that's all for today.

_________________

1. My standards were prettty low.



current mood: exhausted

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Wednesday, July 1st, 2015
8:57 pm - Another Day to Rest
I was planning on running, but the fatigue after work kept me indoors--then I just procrastinated.
Now it is dark.
I'd still go running, but I'm tired and could use a more restful sleep.
So that's how it's going to be.

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Monday, June 22nd, 2015
3:42 pm - Not really feeling it today.
Perhaps this is due to the fact that this is an off day and I also ran some four miles the day before, but I'm a bit fatigued. It's a hot, windy day, but I'd rather just be inside watching television and maybe reading.
I binged on Steven Universe episodes the past week or so. I can say with confidence that it is my new favorite show. The amount of character development and world building is astounding. That show pulls at the heartstrings exceptionally well.
The heavy rain this morning was nice. It gave me an excuse to stay inside, though now I really don't have one.
I used to be an outdoors person, but now I find that it's nothing short of a sensory overload. Inside my house is where I like to be.
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There has been a fair amount going on the past few weeks, but it feels like too much to really blog about at this point. I am a supervisor at my work now, so there's that. I'm in the coffee shop regularly. It's fun.


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current mood: bleh

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Thursday, May 14th, 2015
10:46 pm - Accumulated Thoughts

  • I have more books I'd like to read over the summer.

  • I'm actually somewhat good at these medical classes. I don't think I could be a nurse, but perhaps a related profession.

  • I was considering training for the academy and using that to increase my chance of getting into forensics down the line.

  • I've had a lot of thoughts.

  • I'm better at the physiology part than the anatomy part.

  • Hm, I do believe I'll go to bed now.

  • I'm tapering off.



current mood: Chicago

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Tuesday, May 12th, 2015
10:38 pm - Summation
One class is finished, and I finished the first day of my lab practical in Micro and despite the slight terror I was feeling, it went quite well. The coffeee set in and I was twitching like a dragonfly. I did the gram stain before the innoculation of my tubes and petri dish, not realizing the teacher recommended we do the gram stain last, given the messiness and tediousness of that process. Because of what a pain it was, my logic was to get it out of the way quickly.
I benefited from my method, especially since I didn't have to crowd around the sink with three other people from my table.
Hell, I was one of the first people in my class out the door!
I finally got the grade for my Portfolio assignment yesterday. I did quite well, and I'll be doing more job-stuff tomorrow.
My Monday class is on Friday this week and an assignment is due this Wednesday for this. Why? Because that teacher is incompetent. Thankfully my schedule this semester had Wednesdays and Fridays open. Otherwise I'd REALLY be going what the fuck.
This is still my easiest semester, but my time could still have been spent better. Jobs and schooling are great, given how they force a certain sense of structure into me.
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A lot of stuff has been on my mind as well, but I'll save that for another day.

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Wednesday, May 6th, 2015
10:20 pm - Blech.
Honestly, this was a fairly good day, but I've been rather pooped for most of it.  I assume it has something to do with working out Sunday through Tuesday.
I've been going easy on myself in order to work myself back into a good state, but there was plenty keeping me down for a while. In good news, I've improved my swimming form and I've gotten back into yoga classes.
In bad news, I've been pooped much of the day.
I have much to go over, but until then I just want to say that I am sapped of power.

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, April 28th, 2015
11:51 pm - Best Day in a Long Time
I really don't know all the particulars at this point in the night, especially since I hit the pool a while back, but I realize that this was an all-around good day. I was focused, happy, receptive to learning and classes were enjoyable.
HEALTH:
My cough of 3+ weeks is only getting worse. I called to make a doctor's appointment and found that the doctor will be unavailable until next week.
I think my joint and bone problems can also be partially attributed to the shoes I was wearing. I slipped on my Vibrams today for that reason and was reminded of how certain muscles in my legs fell into disuse over time. Nonetheless, it was a break from other orthotic stresses I've been struggling with for months now.
I'll avoid the details, but the important matter lately is that I need to cut down on my coffee consumption. I also have been compelled to cut down on any meat-eating I've been doing. The appeal to vegetarianism has been growing. I don't think I could truly go vegetarian, but cutting down my meat consumption to a few ounces a day and getting my iron and complete proteins largely from another source is still a great dieting choice.
I ate a lot of salad and quinoa today. It was great.
FITNESS:
I didn't fit much for running in this week and my stretching has been minimal. On a plus side, I will be going back to yoga tomorrow and I was practicing swimming form today.
READING:
1 book down yesterday, another about 10 pages left to go, and Watchmen is making for a great pleasure read.
JOBS:
I have been holding off, as one of my English assignments was doing a portfolio. I want to see if the resume part is good enough to finally email to Clean Harbors.
WORK:
I've been in the coffee shop a lot lately, which is my favorite station. It's far enough removed from the rest of the concessions department where it's actually pretty enjoyable and well-run. By well-run I mean it's got 2 people max at most given points, with 3 when shit gets hectic.
S&M:
I've not really been going to any meet-ups as school was a bit intense up until the previous week.
EXISTENTIALIST STUFF:
I've had my moments, but I've felt a lot more clarity as of late, as opposed to crushing despair. I've felt slightly more confident around the opposite sex. I've been thinking a bit about my future career paths. I'm surprisingly good at a lot of these classes mean for nurses and the like. Maybe forensics is an option...
Hell, maybe the military is too. I'm all over the place, but it's more of a shotgun blast that a riot grenade.

current mood: okay

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Wednesday, April 15th, 2015
11:41 am - There's a Lot to Cover
I made good use of Spring Break, and I can say with a certain amount of pride that I'm starting to feel a certain level of comfort with everything.
Checking out someone wouldn't really stand out as a part of my day, but I've since realized that I don't feel as lonely as of late. I cannot say that I am not without a great deal of shyness around the opposite sex, but I feel more confident than before. I think, "hey, if I started talking to her it might not be a total trainwreck".  I wind up not talking to her, but I feel less of that terror that I might feel from so much as opening my mouth.
I may run into Hypatia soon. I gotta say, I have no fear of my heartstring so much as being pressed.
It was cool dating another nerd. I've no clue who I'll fall for next, but there's really no rush.
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Running is going well. I cannot say that I am in shape, but that hour-long run two days ago still went fairly well. I have a great deal of respect for overweight folks that work hard to lose weight. When you're already skinny and have some hobbies to keep you in shape, it's not too hard to put on some muscles.  This is important to note because I'm starting to push myself more than I have in some time. In fact, though I wasn't feeling great yesterday due to a poor choice in eating and a long day, I went swimming.
Hell, not only did I swim, I swam for a good hour as opposed to my usual forty minute regimen.
I just kept muttering to myself: "You can do this. Five more to go".
I feel sufficiently sore today.
It must be the lactic acid buildup. I think I'll run in a bit to get that out of me.
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As for the bad news, my GIS teacher recently passed away. I realize that he didn't teach our class for long before he started getting tremors and have to leave, but he left an impact nonetheless. The guy was undoubtedly experienced in his line of work, and despite the grey hair and pronounced veins in his hands carried a lot of vitality.
It was cancer that took him. It shook up a fair number of students.
The guy was badass, to say the least. He was totally straightforward and taught us quite a bit considering how it's just an intro class. The school lost a good teacher.

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Thursday, April 9th, 2015
11:37 pm - Lately
I haven't got nearly as much done this week as I would have liked, but it's still been productive.
I've met more of the BDSM community and I'm feeling a bit more like I belong.
I might also add that it's pretty damn awesome to get hit on, as that simply does not happen to me enough.
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It went from dreary to stormy as all hell.
I prefer the latter, as the rain is soothing and the sky takes on a beautiful tint that eases my mind. If it's just all gray with nothing going on, then I start to feel shitty.
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Well, I have stuff to get to now... namely sleep.

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Friday, April 3rd, 2015
10:31 am - Getting Into the Swing of Things
The cold weather is currently keeping me from biking right away, but I'm also compelled to as I know it will only be getting colder.
Swimming yesterday was rather weak, but I had a great run the day before. Fatigue is one thing, but in addition I am still getting back into shape. Again, it was still a great run. I hadn't hit the trail in maybe a month, given that snow and ice and the like made the sidewalk a slightly better option.
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I also went to a munch last night. I think I'm still too tired to get into blogging on it. I will keep it simple and say I felt a bit out of place, but the people were receptive. I'll be getting involved with the community more and the weeks pass.

current mood: tired

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Monday, March 30th, 2015
10:24 pm - Summation
Work injuries continue to mount. I really need to get out of this place.
We had one worker sprain her hand on the job and one of the shit managers that makes me hate this place so much kept ignoring the matter of worker's comp.
Now my hips are okay but the ball of my ankle hurts when pressure is put on it, making wearing shoes a bit inconvenient.
On that matter I did buy some work boots to be somewhat proactive. I can't exactly afford to just quit, but I will try and take off for a week just to recover.
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Spring break happens this Wednesday. I've got quite the number of things I'd like to do:

  1. Finish reading my entomology book.

  2. Get to the halfway-point in my hazmat textbook.

  3. Watch a few movies, including Pitch Perfect and maybe a del Toro film.

  4. Bike, swim and run.

  5. Go to some munches.

  6. Apply for places, regardless of what the places are.

I know, surprisingly un-ambitious of me.

current mood: okay

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Wednesday, March 25th, 2015
4:39 pm - Today.
-There has been this shooting pain in my ankle the past two days, so I finally remembered to buy some work boots. One thing is for sure, I'm not really sure about running.
-I will have to take one more class to graduate as the class I tried to get out of isn't covered by my current Chem credits.
-Beautiful day, but I liked it even more when it was cloudy. Regardless, it's still chilly.
-Kinda sore and tired, but I only had one coffee for the day up until a half hour ago.
-There are some openings at a few companies for me to apply for.
-I may also watch a movie today. I know it sounds weird, but I have little patience for movies. I much prefer a book.

current mood: tired

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